sudden death....

it's been a week since I've started having an insomnia...restless souls whisper in my ears...mentioning all of my sins and worries everynight as i try to rest,,,my innerself told me to ignore them but i just can't,,,those demons are trying to put me down,,,i still believe in god...i do...really... I always talk to him...I cry on his shoulders...i always ask him some questions that bothers my soul...he helps me a lot...it's true...He helps me to understand everything...before i met him... I used to think of death...everybody thought i was happy because i always joke around...it is quite teu but, deep inside i cry,,,there's still a part of me thats missing...is it a relationship? If that is...i am so pathetic...i don't want to admit it but it's true...it shows....

(continuation next week)