Ai Nako

Ai nako...as in ay nako naman talaga....mantakin mo ba naman yon...nagsulat na ako dito eh...tapos biglang ganun nalang....nawala!?sus...kaasar naman oh....(what a pity...).Tinulugan na tuloy ako ng nanay ko...naka naman...actually, i really want to write in english you know...(whe...?hindi nga??)Yes, it's true...i want to speak in english because im so high...(bangag...?i think she's been taking drugs again...)...aba...tingnan mo nga naman...akala ko ako lang ang may gustong mag-english eh...humihirit din pala ang isang to...Anyways...the reason why i am speaking and writing in english today is because i am so lonely.....it's been quite a long time since i've started feeling this way...i always feel like...i'm ugly...(eh?) Yes...even myself doubted at me...see??yeah...in Mexico..."Betty La Fea", in another country..."Letty la mas Fea", in U.S "Ugly Betty"...here in the Philippines.....in Marikina city.....inside ahouse....sitting on a chair...we have...ladies and gentlemen...the newest and ugliest girl in the Philippines..."Bea La Mas Fea!!!!"...(SFX: applause)....oh...i don't know why but, i feel so down and terrible...i always feel like...being dump by some mean, ugly and stupid boys...i just wanna tell them that...."i am not a lesbian...." and even if i have to repeat it every school year...(over and over again...)...I will....what's wrong to be boyish???I still have-(aaaahhhhh!!! scary!!!)...you know what i mean...i just don't wanty to wear mini skirts because i don't feel comfortable...and besides...i want to get respect you know....(duh...why do you always have to say "you know"??)....i also feel uncomfortable when i wear fitted blouse/shirt because....i just don't feel wearing one... sometimes...(i agree...its pretty hot...)/(not unless you get jealous with your beautiful cousin...hahah..) even make-up!!! (actually, she was practising to put make-up on her face a while ago...hahah)...hey...!!I just tried it because im curious....(and jealous..again..)...truth is when i was young..i used to wear high heels, skirts, fitted blouse and etc....it's just that, when i was growing up...i started to realize that i feel more comfortable wearing big shirts and pants...(oh geez..this is getting boring...go straight to the point already!!)...really...?its getting boring...well...i'll just continue this maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow...?heheh...it's time to sleep eh...heheh...wang!

*bhrenz other side:

truth is that bhrenz feels like if she changed and dress up like a girl..people around her will also change...i mean...how do you explain it...uhm...oh yeah!!...ah..kasi iniisip niya na baka isipin ng mga tao na "ay si ___ umaarte na...ay si ____ganun...Ay si ___ganyan etc..."lam niyo yun??masyado kasing concious to sa sarili niya eh...feeling kasi niya,baka nagpapaka-trying hard lang siyang magpaganda....weird di ba???You understand?Hm?Ok..that's all...have a pleasant evening...Muah..

note: If you're a foreigner who just dropped by and read the story...please look for an interpreter for you to understand what im saying...got it?ok..thank you very much...also..your comment will be very much appreciated..thank you again and have a nice day....muah...mama mia...mi amore...feliciscima, violeta, portugese...ah...ewan...